Breaking up is hard to do...

Nothing lasts forever....

But then when you least expect it, new things are on the horizon.

Two weeks ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years.  It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.  After this past week of rollercoaster emotions, I do not know if or when this will get any easier.

For a very long time now, I have not really been happy in this relationship. It was not because he didn't treat me well or love me with all that he had, because he could not have been better to me.  There were just SO many issues that I just could not handle.

We live 100 miles apart. I did not like his kids. At all! I tried! I really did try and it just would not work.  There were many other issues too that I won't go into. It's just hard. And it sucks.

I was married for 11 years and I had the worst pain and suffering in my divorce that I have ever felt in my life. I made a promise to myself that I could not and would not settle for anything less than what I felt I needed and deserved. So this tiny step in to freedom has made me feel like I made the right decision.  I had to hurt someone who I cared about a whole lot. He has lashed out at me through lots of emails and text messages and he seems to be having a hard time coping.

Part of me feels so relieved that I did it. Yet another part of me is miserable.........

Heart Surgery~ Done!

Wow! I did not realize it had been so long since I've been around! Time flies even when you are not having fun!

So many things happening lately. One thing at a time...

My ex husband had his heart surgery last week and everything went fine. Well once he had one minor setback, that is.

The surgery was on Tuesday morning and by noon they were finished and everything had gone well. However, the next morning at 3 am my phone woke me out of a hard sleep. It was his mom letting me know that he had some sort of internal bleeding and they had called the surgical team back in. He was going back in to surgery. I was sick!

At 6 am that same morning he was out of surgery and was again doing just fine.

As the hours went by he continued to progress and we were able to get updates regularly.  I told my youngest daughter that I just may have to sedate her along with her dad because she was a basket case!

Finally on the Friday he was well enough for me to take them to visit, although he was still in ICU.

Saturday we went back again and he was in his own private room and was getting up and around. Walking, talking, eating and showering.

Monday he came home and they picked up the girls on the way back and they have been staying there to help him out.

Thanks for all of the prayers, they were much needed and greatly appreciated. And they worked!