I should have married a doctor...

I saw my 'female' doctor this week. I do indeed have a few cysts in my uterus...some, the size of golf balls!

He really is not too concerned at this point, because he says that cysts are common and most women have them.

Also, I am not having any major symptoms or discomfort from them right now. Sooo, in two months he wants to see me again. If they have grown or my symptoms worsen, then he will remove my uterus. Just my uterus...and leave my ovaries.

My regular doctor is supposed to be sending me to a specialist for a second opinion about my liver. Remember that? Well, obviously he doesn't because they still have not called me. I called and they were supposed to get back with me, and two days later, still nothing.

Again, this is not anything to be worried about (easy for them to say!) but the waiting bugs me.

Somebody fix me!!.......yesterday.

Saturday Happy!

It is Saturday and it is time for some Happy stuff!

On my HAPPY List this week:

NKOTBSB!

If you do not know what that stands for, it is New Kids on The Block and The BackStreet Boys!

I saw them last night, in concert, with my oldest daughter!

We had a BLAST!

HAPPY!!

At the end of last year when the show was announced, I really wanted to go but my other favorite right now, Keith Urban was also coming (and that makes me VERY HAPPY too) so I prioritized! However, when the show got closer, down to this week, I could not pass it up! Since I did not win any tickets, I figured I may as well buy the tickets and go!

I am so HAPPY I did not pass it up! What a show! Reminiscing over all of the old songs and re-living my early 20's was awesome! I am so very HAPPY I got to share it with my daughter. She really did enjoy herself. And that makes me HAPPY too!

Link up with Mamarazzi and tell us what makes YOU happy!

Health Update

I am going to try and make this as short and sweet and as 'to the point' as possible..... this is an update from this post

So far, I do not know much on the status of my 'female' problems. I have an appointment next week with my gyno to discuss my options with that.

Yesterday I saw my regular doctor and he informed me that after the second scan I had done last week, whatever it is that is on my liver is not now showing any signs of the hermangioma BUT it does not show characteristics of cancer either! Thank the good LORD!

My options were to check it again in a few months or get a second opinion. I will be seeing a liver specialist soon for his thoughts. My mind has been put greatly at ease!

As for my ex husband, he has his heart surgery scheduled for the second week in July. Please continue to definitely keep him in your prayers because I found out this week that what he has could cause him to die in an instant and this should have been taken care of quite a while ago. What can I say about hard headed men?

Thanks again for all of the positive feedback and support. It is deeply appreciated.

We Want To Know Wednesday #9

Once again, Mamarazzi, Impulsive Addict, Janette and Seriously Shawn come together to bring you WE WANT TO KNOW WEDNESDAY! Visit them today and link up!

Here are this week's questions:

{1} You have been asked to give a 10 minute speech to teenage girls. What is it about?

 

Public speaking is NOT my thing so I think a speech would be OUT for me, but I guess I would have to go with the importance of taking care of yourself. As far as being healthy, having respect for yourself and others and taking care of your body. Every teenage girl should follow those rules!

 

{2} Do you have a pet? Tell us about them. No pets? Why?

 

We do NOT have any pets. It's not because we would not like one, but I like things in order and working. Not to mention, one less living breathing thing to clean up after makes my life so much easier!

 

{3} What is the biggest inconvenience about the place you’re currently living?

 

Honestly, we live in a small town and I love it, but there is nowhere to shop and pretty much nothing to do. We have to drive at least 30 minutes or so to go to a movie or eat at a nice restaurant. And all we have is Wal-Mart. Sad!!

Other than that, I only drive 5 minutes to work and the schools are close by for my girls and all I have to do is drive around the block from my house to be in 'town'.

 

{4} What do you think is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

 

Planning for and having my girls. They are my world and without them I have no idea where I would be today!

 

{5} What are the THREE "nevers" of your life? (things you would never do or have never done)

Sky diving or bungee jumping. I am deathy afraid of heights and falling, so those will never happen for me!

Roller coasters or scary rides! I hate them and I believe they are for crazy people. Again, I am a chicken! Bok Bok!

I've never been to Disneyland. I am 41 years old and I have never gone and if I ever get there it probably will not be any time soon, but one day I'd like to get us there.


Happy Wednesday!!

Changes.....

Today is just like any other Sunday afternoon that I have spent in my entire life. Everything is quiet and all I hear is the TV on in the other room and the hum of the air conditioner and the fan.

However, it is also very different. Many things are going to be happening in the days, weeks and months to come. I suppose some of them will be good and others not so good. All I can do is pray that the outcome will be mostly good.

A couple of weeks ago, I started feeling something 'just not right' in my right side. I had my gallbladder removed a little over a year ago so at first I just chalked it up to scar tissue or other organs just repositioning themselves. After a few days the discomfort went around to my lower back and I felt it was time to seek out a doctor's opinion.

The first test I had done was a urinalysis and it showed traces of blood, but I was told it was not a kidney infection and I would need further testing. Last week I had a test done that is basically an X-ray of your kidneys, to rule out a kidney stone. This test revealed something that lead me to another test to focus further in on several other things. A CT scan. Side note: The barium drink they require you to swallow is totally disgusting and puke-inducing! I held it down though...barely!

The following day, I finally got a call from the nurse telling me that my kidneys are fine.  They are fine, but I am not. There is, in fact, not one but TWO different issues I am looking at. One is that my uterus is a bit 'enlarged' and has what looks like benign cysts in it. (wonderful!) I am to see my gynecologist for a follow-up on that as soon as possible. Personally, I see a hysterectomy in my near future. 

If that was not enough, there is an issue with my liver! All I heard her say was something about blood vessels and more intense testing and my heart sinking to the ground!

Basically this is why I have not been blogging/vlogging/commenting, etc. I am still here but not feeling up to par, although I still have been working and doing my daily routine. My concentration on any one thing right now is rough.

I wish that I could end my predicament right here and end this post, but I can not. There is more.........

My ex husband called me up a few months ago (about 8, I believe) and told me that he had been to the doctor and was going in for further testing on his heart. The man is only 38 years old, so I thought it could not possibly be anything. After some pretty intense testing of his own, he was told that he needs open heart surgery! He needs aortic valve replacement....I'll explain:

Your heart has 3 main valves that run through it, pumping blood. He only has two and they are only working at 22% capacity. What this surgery would do is open up the blood flow and give him that extra valve he needs to  save him from dropping dead. The doctor he saw last week told him he needed this surgery 'yesterday' and told him he needs it done ASAP!

Most people hate their ex-spouse and for whatever reasons I guess they are entitled. I see mine as a partner in raising our children. Someone I can confide in when our daughters need anything.  He supports me as a parent, financially and with as much help as I need. Honestly, he is our biggest financial support. I receive more from him than I make at my job. When the girls have an issue, we talk it through and find a way to solve it. Together.

My girls need him. I need him. Honestly, we all need each other.  I am pretty much a basket case right now, but taking it one day at a time.

When I told him the results of my test he said that everything was going to work out and we would all be ok. I am hoping and praying that what he said is true and that this is just another stumble for us until we can get back on our feet and keep on running.

If it is not too much to ask, I hope that anyone who was able to sit and read through all of this can take the smallest amount of time out of your day to send a prayer to heaven, or throw out a positive vibe or thought our way. Any little bit will be deeply appreciated and returned to you in abundance.

The quicker that we take care of our situations, the sooner we will all be back to normal. I never wanted my blog to be about the horrors of health problems and troubles at home. However, after much consideration of the issues at hand, and what this place is to me, I knew that coming here and pouring it all out into words would be one of my first steps to healing. We are not going down without a fight and I will be here through it all to use this avenue as a way to clear my mind and share my feelings. Good or bad.

Thanks to the few of you who emailed and checked in on me. I appreciate it more than you know.  God bless you all.