Not a Post...

This is not a post to fill you in on the happenings in my world lately.

This is not a post to let you know that what ails me has been discovered and fixed. Nada!

This is not a post to tell you all about what I bought my kids for Christmas.

This is not a post to tell you all about how my oldest daughter 'became a woman' this week.

This is not a post to complain, shout with glee, or rant about anything.

This post is to wish you all a VERY MERRY AND BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!

May you all be blessed and enjoy your families and your friends now and for many more to come!

Test

I had my test done! The scope. And now it is just to wait and see what the results are. A test was done to see if there is what is described as a bacteria that grows in your stomach, but is easily treated with antibiotics. I did have some acid in my stomach and I am on a different medicine to get that cleared up and back to normal.

Now if there were a cure for these darn hot flashes!

*Burp*

I never gave much thought to my health. As long as I felt fine, then I saw no reason to be concerned. Most people live that way, I guess. However, it's important to pay close attention to what your body is telling you sometimes.

Lately, it seems, several people in this community have died at a very early age. Very early age, meaning close to my age. That makes me quite uncomfortable. And a little, well a lot, worried!

It has been well over six months since I have had my gallbladder removed, and after that was done, I felt much better. Until about a month ago. I went back to the doctor with complaints of constant burping/indigestion. Same thing that my stone-filled gallbladder was doing to me. He gave me some medicine and sent me on my way. It is not working. In fact, it seems as though it has gotten much worse and I am at my wits end.

Last week I had an appointment, and because I absolutely despise going to the doctor, and because I felt fine that day, and because I am totally nuts, I cancelled! How dumb, right? I called yesterday to reschedule and now I can not get in until next week. Serves me right, I guess.

So anyway, I am hoping and praying that it is nothing serious. The doctor did say that if it did not work, he'd have to go back in with a scope (down my throat) and see what's up. Since it was not so bad the last time, and because I am desperate to end this misery, I guess I have no choice.

It is the wait that is bugging me now.

Monday Evening Soak in the Tub

I took a bubble bath tonight, with some Bath and Body Works Aromatherapy, Lavendar and Chamomille. So nice.

As I sat back and relaxed for all of about 3 to 4 minutes, just enough time to inhale the aroma and relax for a few, I took the time to reflect on what I am thankful for.

My kids chattering in the other room. The few minutes I had to relax alone. The roof over my head, sheltering me from the elements. And so much more.

The little things, I think, are what make me happiest and fill my days with gratitude.

No doubt, there is so much more that I would love to have in life, but for now, I want to be able to enjoy what I do have and appreciate it.

Everyday.

Forty minus twenty equals 20

It has been awhile. I have not felt so great lately. Not really sure what is going on, but from what I can gather (from google, anyway) I may be in the beginning stages of menopause. Lovely!

Some weeks ago, it all started with a little fluttering in my heart. Now, I have had that happen before over the course of my life, but nothing to worry about. Basically, it would flutter and then go on beating. Thankfully!

This time though, it was often and on a regular basis. I went to the doctor. Twice! First time around, he gave me some medicine for my stomach. I was having a constant burping. Very irritating, to say the least. However, by the end of that same week, I went back. This time, insisting he check my heart. Which he did. An EKG came back just fine. So, for the next step, he gave me an anti-depressant. For anxiety, mind you. Whatever you say, doc!

I began to take those and I felt like a zombie, really. Not a fan of that one bit. Within a couple days, the hot flashes started. Wow! I quit taking the anti-depressants because again, not a fan of the flying high feel. Not only did I start to feel better, but the heart fluttering subsided. Yet those darn hot flashes really baffled me, so me and my friend Google went on a search and we came up with the pre-menopause diagnosis. I made an appointment with my OB-GYN. She told me she really believes that is what it is. Hot flashes, irregular periods, fluttering heart beat, mood swings. Yep, that describes me!

So hopefully I will survive this, since I would think I am only in the beginning and have a long way to go until relief. The hot flashes have subsided some, but I guess according to what my ovaries are doing down there, those will come and go as they feel the need.

I want to be 20 again!!

Reading......

I have had my nose in this lately.....

Well, only since yesterday evening, but still. My nose will be there for a while, you can be sure of it!

What an awesome book so far!

Even if you are not a Rick fan, and why the heck would you not be? It's a great read.

I know that some people enjoy reading autobiographies, so this one comes highly recommended by me!

Definitely!

Volleyball

Volleyball season is well underway and my baby is kicking butt and taking names. Well, maybe not so much, but she is doing really well, considering I am her mother. Me. Miss Non-Athletic!

She is very into the game and serious about playing. I am so proud of that!

She gives it all she's got!

And never fails to sock it to 'em!

Go, Alyssa!

Toys!

I bought myself a new toy! You want to see it? Then by all means, go see it here!

Another cool toy I received lately was a DVR! Old to some people, but since I live in the sticks, getting one was quite an excitement for me since my cable company finally decided to offer one in my area.

New TV season, I am ready for you!

Crazy Busy!

My life has been busy, busy, busy lately! So much to do and not enough time to do it all. Seriously, I crave some ME time and some DOWN time a lot and strive to get it more than you know!

This week, my schedule looks like this:

Monday: I work 8-4:30...and that is M-F every week.
Volleyball game at 5:00pm, I work concession stand from 5:30 to 6:30.
Then it's time to go home and eat, bathe, homework, laundry, dishes...yea!

Tuesday: Volleyball game at 5:30...out of town...45 minute drive to and from...we won!
Arrive home at 7:30pm and let all the above fun begin again!

Wednesday: (today) Orthodontist appt. at 9:40 am for Alyssa and then on my lunch break, I
bring my van in to get the fan for the air conditioner looked at. It only blows on
the highest setting right now. Not good. No practice, no game today...just home to
cook, do laundry, homework, dishes, etc. etc.

Thursday: Volleyball practice at 4:00 and then home to do the usual.

Friday: Work work work!

Weekend: Rest! I insist!


I'm tired!

S.P.O.R.T.S

When I was in school, way back in the day, I was an average student. My favorite subject would have been Reading or English and what did I hate the most, other than Math? P.E.!! I stunk at physical education. I hated every game we had to play and I was that little girl that nobody wanted on their team. In fact, when I was the 'captain' and had to choose my teammates, everyone would groan when I called their name. And when I was not the captain? You guessed it, I was the last one chosen. Quite reluctantly, at that!

Sports has always, and still is, nowhere to be seen in my interests. I do not even like to watch it. Except for Gymnastics. I always dreamed about being a gymnast and I wanted to go the Olympics and do the floor exercise and win a gold medal. I could do a cartwheel, and that is about as far as that ever went, since 'way back in the day' there were no gymnastics classes within an hour of where I lived, that dream died fast.

Fast forward about 30 years later and my 10 year old is now on the 5th grade volleyball team at her school. I am so proud of her. Proud that not only is she showing an interest in something that I despised my whole life, but that she loves it and she is good at it! Obviously she did not get her sportsman-like genes from my eggs!

You can rest assured that when I go to her first game, she won't be dodging the ball and praying that it comes nowhere near her like a little girl I once knew!

Baby Baby Baby!

So we survived our girls weekend, just me and my daughters and we had a blast. Justin Bieber is a doll and he put on an awesome show. After the concert, my youngest calls her dad and says, "This was the best night of my whole life!" And to me she gushes, "Justin Bieber is so HOT!" Ok, if you say so! Pssshht!

It was great while it lasted, but summer is just about officially over and my babies go back to school next week!! I say babies, but Chelsea will be in 8th grade and Alyssa, my baby baby, is going to be in 5th! They are growing up so fast!

Speaking of fast, Chelsea had a check-up yesterday for her meds for her ADD, and she is now 5'4" and she weighs 146 pounds!! She is by no means big or overweight, just solid!! Pretty soon, she will be bigger than me and she's only 13!

I also learned some good news yesterday about her state testing for the 8th grade. I thought that if she did not pass it she would have to repeat the year and not be allowed to enter high school. However, what actually happens is she will be required to attend a month of summer school and as long as she has good attendance and behavior, she will then go on to the 9th grade.

One less thing for me to worry about! After all, I have a 10 year old in hot pursuit of a 16 year old famous boy who only looks 12!

Now and Later..

This weekend, I am taking my girls to see this cutie:

And as a reward to myself for being such a kind, thoughtful mother, I bought tickets to see this cutie in a month from now:

Don't hate!

Jason Derulo

We listen to the radio at work. All. Day. Long! There are some songs, I would love to set a bonfire to and never have them played again for all eternity!

Yet, there are a few choice ones that I absolutely love and just can not get enough of. Surprisingly, I have come to like a song that is nowhere near the style of music that I tend to listen to, but for whatever reason, I was drawn to this one. I even downloaded his WHOLE CD!

I introduce to you, Jason Derulo:





I recommend cranking it up, because well, that's how it sounds best!

Flash Back Friday-Weeble Wobble

My daughter and I were reading some of her required summer reading for school, and in the book (which is set back in the days before even *I* existed) it mentioned a toy that the child was playing with. In describing it, the book stated that it was made heavy on the bottom, allowing it to stay in an upright position. I turned to her and said, "Sorta like a 'Weeble Wobble', to which she replied, "What's a Weeble Wobble"?

Um, duh! How could I expect my ten year old child to remember these things?:

My sister and I played with Weeble Wobble's plenty of times in our childhood and being the defiant and persistant child that I was, I always did everything I could to try and make them stay lying on their side. Not an easy feat for the toy that claims to "wobble, but never fall down"!






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Positively Positive!

Since my decision to take a step back from my relationship and analyze things: My life, my feelings, my ability to be a happier me....I've decided to attempt to look at things in a more positive light.

If anyone in the world is negative, I would be that one. Not to blame that on anyone, because I love(d) my parents dearly, but I grew up in a lot of negativity. Don't get me wrong, I had a great childhood and I could not have asked for more from it, but everything, and I mean everything was always looked at as the ever popular glass half empty.

One of the things that I have decided to do is surround myself with happier, much more positive aspects of life. In searching for something such as this, I came across some very inspiring quotes that I wanted to share:


“Fear less, hope more; Eat less, chew more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Love more, and all good things will be yours”

I really have taken this one to heart, it is something I want to live by every day!

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“Instead of thinking about what you're missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.”

I can totally do this one! I know how fortunate I am to have the people I have in my life and the love that not everyone is so fortunate to have.


One day at a time! One step at a time! I am on the path to better days!

What To Do

First up, thanks to all of you sweet people who offered for me to move near you. I would love to take a leap of faith and just do it, but I can't. Not now.

I took a step back from the relationship that I am in and asked for some space. Now all I feel like doing is crying. I am 40 years old, I am not married and my whole life is up in the air. They say you will know what to do, when the time is right. I guess that time is not here yet.

Strange as it sounds, I said before that I did not want to get married again, but I actually want to be married. What is wrong with me? Someone, please tell me! This is so confusing.

The only conclusion that I can come to is that I am scared. Scared to make a mistake. Scared to be miserable. Scared that I will fail again.

As far as the relationship I am in, if it could just be he and I, we could conquer the world together. We could live happily ever after and never look back. Except for the fact that we both have two children. Each. Children that we share with other people and these little people are being raised in two completely different manners. On two opposite ends of the spectrum.

And that is where I falter. I hesitate. I step back. I dig my heels in and scream "whooaaa".

So now I sit here alone and ponder what to do. What to do, what to do. Sit here alone half of the time while he has his weekend visitation with his kids for the next 5 to 7 years, or do I move on?

That is the question, and boy is it a doozy!

Calgon, where are you?

You've been warned. This post is all about bitching and I am in just the right mood to do it!

First of all, I cooked supper. My girls left to go with their dad. Last minute. I'm left to eat alone. Not happy!

So I decide to pop in my Netflix DVD and watch some good ol' Nip/Tuck. Guess what? Wrong disc in the envelope. Wonderful!

Now what? I sit and write. And gripe!

There have been many times in my life where I have just wanted to run away. Seriously! I have always felt like I did not 'belong' here. Here being the exact location in which I reside. Like this whole STATE!

Confused? Well, you know how people who have sex changes say that they felt like they were born in the wrong body and need to change it? That's me. Only I am in the right body, just not the right PLACE! The wrong state, as in United States? I just need another one. Like one that is far enough away to be away from HERE.

My happy place, if you will. Because other than my family (what's left of it....my dad and my sister) and a few close friends, oh and of course, my job, which I love, I feel like I need to leave. I want to GO!

Today would be a good start, only I have no clue exactly which state I would go to. A friend of mine laughs at me still today, because when I was around 18-20 yrs old, I would always say I was going to move to Nebraska! Why there, I have no clue. Maybe I just thought it sounded good.

Another thing holding me here is my girls. They absolutely would not be happy to leave their dad and I could not do that to them. I keep saying that when my baby graduates high school, I am out of here. That's still 8 years away. *SIGH*

What to do? What to do? I guess I have no choice but to stick it out and suck it up, huh? Oh well.

Calgon, take me away!!

Oh What A Day!

Girls day out was a good one, but a stressful one nonetheless, and I will get to that later. First I want to share my thoughts on Eclipse:

* I did not find this movie to be 'the best yet'. Honestly, of the four books in the saga, I found this one to be the one I enjoyed the least.

*If you skipped this movie and went straight from New Moon into Breaking Dawn, I do not think you would have missed any major plot.

*I noticed many very young children at the theater and several moms explaining scenes to them. People, if you have to explain a movie to your child, they are too young to be watching it!!

*Kudos to Edward for wanting to 'wait until marriage'. If not, this movie would have been rated R!

*Jacob, put a shirt on. Oh and get a nose job, because you are NOT "hotter than" Edward!

I'm just sayin. I was not that impressed. Don't get me wrong, it was good, but I would not gush about it.

We went shopping afterwards and my youngest took her purse into Old Navy and left it in the dressing room. We did not discover this slip up until maybe 3 hours later. Frantically we made our way all the way back through the city to find that the salesgirl had turned it in to the lost and found.

Heart attack, stroke, breakdown averted. The reason for panic? Her Nintendo DS was inside of it!


Never a dull moment, I tell ya!

Busy Busy Busy!

Things have been crazy around here lately. So crazy that I can not wait to get back to work from my so-called lunch 'break' so that I can catch my breath. If I am not running to deliver children to friends' houses for visits, or to school for summer AR testing, it's something else.

As of Thursday morning, I am hoping to get a little more time to breathe. I took the rest of the week off and since Monday is a holiday, well I have a little vacation time. But then again, I doubt that much rest will be had because first of all me and my girls have a date with these guys:

I can not wait to see it. I love me some Edward, my oldest loves her some Jacob and my baby girl, well she loves them all! Movie theater, here we come!

After that, I have planned an afternoon of shopping, eating and enjoying some time with my girls!

I could not ask for more!

Flash Back Friday-Still Crazy For You

OK, so as not to bore you all to death with my posts of music lately, this will be the last one this week, but I wanted to participate in Flash Back Friday with Therese! Who also shares a love for Rick along with me.

Taking you way back on this Friday, here is another of my all time favorite songs from my all time favorite singer.....Enjoy!

What Kind Of Fool Am I?

As I continue on my quest to bring you a few of my all time favorite songs from my all time favorite singer, I present to you a song that brings back so many memories.

Back in the day, as a pre-teen, I would spend many Saturday mornings listening to albums on my mom's stereo in the living room. I would dance and sing and read the lyrics that were included in the album sleeve. Daydreaming that this gorgeous man was singing directly to me.

If only!


Anyhow, I think it's the nostalgia, the remembrance, the simplicity of the songs that made me choose the ones that I did. This one is no exception......

Don't Walk Away

Music plays a big role in my life. Anyone who knows me can attest to the fact that I love music and have a wide range of musical interests.

Another thing that anyone who really knows me well can tell you, is that my all time favorite singer in the whole wide world is Rick! It is no secret, people. I have blogged about him before, I have gushed about him and how gorgeous he is and even bragged about the fact that I have met him on numerous occasions.

But that is not what I am here to do today. I am over that. A little. For this little bit. For the time being. Ahem. Anyway...on with the real meaning behind this post....

It was recently asked by me and his trillions of other fans to participate in a poll to vote for a few of my favorite songs, videos, etc of his and believe it or not, out of the hundreds that the man has written and recorded over the years, it was a fairly easy task.

Over the next few days, or heck, maybe even weeks. I am going to talk about some of the songs of his (and believe it or not, other artists and songs, that I adore. Yes! There are many!) that I enjoy, that mean something to me, bring back memories, or hold a special place in my heart.

So, first up is song that holds special meaning for me in more ways than one.

Not only is this the very first song he sang, the very first time I saw him live in concert, it also brings me back to a time in my life when I had no worries, no responsibilities and a dream about what it would be like to experience a relationship.

The song is called "Don't Walk Away" and I have to say that this may very well be my all time favorite song of Rick's. It also played a part in my life when I had to deal with divorce and the after effects that came with it.

So crank it up! Enjoy it! Good music was meant to be played LOUD!!

This is something that a fan threw together with a few photos (and some great ones, at that) but the audio was better than the actual video, itself.

Marriage

This post has been a long time coming! I have thought about it over and over and finally decided to sit and write what is swirling around in my mind.

First of all, my intentions are not to insult or belittle anyone for their own beliefs, thoughts, values, etc. I know that probably ninety percent of my readers are married and I just want to get it out of the way, to start off, that this post in no way was intended to offend any one of you.

And so now I shall begin.........

Most everyone knows that I am divorced. If you play a part in my life any at all, whatsoever, it's no secret. I just want to state that divorce was never something that I wanted, needed, or asked for. Nor is it something that I would ever wish on the worst of people. To state it plainly and simply, it sucks!!

For those out there that are happily married, I applaud you to the highest. There is nobody in the world that could be more happy for you than I. As a child, that was my dream in a nutshell. Grow up, get married and have kids. That is ALL I wanted to do. And I did. But then it all ended.

It seems as though lately a few people have inquired as to when I will get married again. Basically, I tell them, I do not know that I ever will. Not because it is something I do not want, nor that I am totally against it. I am not. I would love more than anything in this world, to be 'settled' again and blissfully happy. Honestly though, I do not believe it is something I need in my life anymore.

Years and years ago, and even today, many people did it with the intentions of the old adage, 'till death do us part' but I can not say that I feel the need to have someone tell me that it is required of me. I truly believe that I can have just as a productive, happy life as anyone who signs on the dotted line. I can not, nor do I want to, have any more children, so that is one less reason to do it. Secondly, the divorce rate is so high right now, and the numbers and odds are even higher that a second marriage will fall apart, that I just feel better playing it safe.

Of all the people that I know, and I know a lot of people, I have to say that at least 95 percent of them have been divorced. At least once. For one reason or another.

Most everyone knows what happened, and why I am divorced, and honestly I never thought or believed it was my fault. I could be wrong. I am only human. I know there are things that make me less than admirable on any given day, but who is perfect. No one.

So to sum it all up, I am happy with my life the way it is. I feel that if one day I decide to spend the rest of my days with that one person indefinitely, that I do not have to make it legal. I do not have to change my last name. I do not have to be tied to anyone via the bonds of marriage. I can just live happily ever after as is. And that is very well what I intend to do!

School's Out For Summer!

School has been out now for oh, about two and a half weeks now. The most severe case of boredom ever has hit this household. Not me, mind you. Those two female youngsters that call me mom are the ones who have been bit with the bug.

In a sense, I am terribly happy that I have this time to stop and catch my breath, if you will. Sad that they are home most days, not really knowing what to do with themselves while I work, but glad that there is no homework. No stress. No deadlines for dues. Field trips, expenses, etc.

What stresses me most of all, is that my oldest hates school. She really really does and it drives me insane. I mean, she has NO INTEREST in ANYTHING school-wise and I am to the point of pulling my hair out!

It is summer, what is there to stress about NOW, you ask? Well, I will explain.....

Chelsea will be in the 8th grade this year. In the state that we live in, it is required that all 8th grade students must take and pass what is called, the LEAP test. What this basically means is, they must take a mandatory test which covers Math, Social Studies, Science, and English. If any of these sections are not completed with a passing score, then they will be held back in 8th grade. Even if she makes the grades which make her eligible to pass on to high school and fails any part of this test, she will again be required to repeat the 8th grade. Or go to summer school. Whether or not she will pass on after attending summer school, is not to my knowledge. Yet.

So yes, summer has just begun, she has not even begun 8th grade, but I am already a mess. A wreck with worry about what will happen in the months to come.

Math is not her thing. At all. I can not say as I blame her, I myself did not do all that well in Math, but I never border lined on failing. Chelsea did. And has. She was struggling very much so in the 6th grade, so I hired a tutor. Not only did I pay tuition, because she was still in private school at the time, but I paid a tutor on top of that. And she failed math that year. However, she moved on to the 7th grade. In public school. Where she passed math this year. With a D!

I feel so guilty for feeling bad about this and worrying. Sad, because there are mothers out there with sick children. Children who have serious illnesses, whose mothers are just so happy to have every second with their child. And those mothers who do not have their child in their lives anymore at all. I wonder if I am just being trivial in a world of so much real loss and sadness.

I should not be complaining. However, all I want is what is best for my child. And to get her through high school with all of the hair left on my head!

Social Networking

Every day, in one form or the other, I like to connect to the outside world.

Whether it be Facebook.

Or Twitter..

I am there! Every day. Especially now that I have my new iPhone I am easily reached at all times.

So if you are on Facebook...friend request me. Most of my friends, well probably 99 percent of them, do not know I have a blog. And I'd like to keep it that way, k?

If you are on Twitter, then follow me. I promise to follow you back. Not on Twitter? Why not? I did not really get it at first, but I am catching on now. And I feel like I am talking to myself, so come follow me! And keep me company!

Don't be shy, I'll be waiting for your requests!

Confusion is my middle name

As I sit here on a cloudy, almost rainy (again!) day, so many things run through my mind. This blog is where I am supposed to be turning to for a place to spill. Lately I have just been too lazy. Sad!

I can not for the life of me, describe what that feeling is like. The 'want' to do something, but the lack of 'oomph' to do it. Some days it irritates me. Other days, I just do not care.

Yet today is one of those days that I am irritated. Irritated (what a funny looking word!) because I do not feel like doing anything! Yet, aggravated because I want to.

Confusing is a nice word to call myself!

I love a nerd

I recently found a new love. A man who has it all. Brains, humor, and personality! And his name is Sheldon....

Searching one day on Netflix for something new to watch, I came upon a TV show called "The Big Bang Theory" The blurb sounded interesting, so I added it to my list of DVD's. Boy, was I in for a surprise!

If you have not seen this show, then I highly recommend it. Run out and rent it, order it, get it on Netflix. Whatever you do.....um, well just do it, you will not be sorry! Check him out:

I. Love. Him!!

Just BE!

A lifelong friend of mine lost her only daughter, 20 years old, to a tragic car accident this past weekend.

In times such as these, you hear and say the same things over and over.

"Such a sad and horrific thing to have happened."

"Taken way too young."

"They had their whole lives ahead of them."

Really, what more can you say? What can you do?

The only thing you can do is be a friend and be there for them.

Nothing in the world can reverse what happened in instances such as these.

My heart aches for the loss of such a close-knit loving family and such sweet and caring people that have been in my life for as long as I can remember.

I pray that God heals their hearts and eases their mind's and let's them realize that one day they will meet again.

And that no mother on Earth should ever have to bury her baby again....

The Back-Up Plan

I saw The Backup Plan this past weekend. (check out that flat stomach, would ya?) I loved it! If you have not seen it yet, I highly recommend it. And that guy in the movie with, none other than J-Lo? He is a total hottie!

Helllooooooo, darlin! Alex O'Loughlin. No other words can be said!

Happy Mother's Day!

I would like to take this time to wish each and every mother out there a

VERY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!


I will be thinking of my own mom who is not with us anymore and about the happy times we had together when she was here.

Our day, my girls and I, will be lunch at my Dad's and then maybe some time spent at the park.

Oh and I will still be playing with the gift I bought myself for Mother's Day!

No, I didn't win the lottery, but I splurged.

'Cause I deserve it!

A Little Bit of This...A Little Bit of That

I have returned to the working world! Everything went fine, and I am on the mend. Yay, me!





Summer is almost here and I am so ready to have that one less stress of school, homework, grades, etc.





My house desperately needs some spring cleaning and I. Don't. Feel. Like. Doing. It!





The day before my surgery, I went on a pretty cool field trip with my youngest...pics to come soon.





Mother's Day is approaching. Not my favorite holiday of the year.





I would love to take a vacation. Just a weekend getaway would be nice. Winning the lottery would help!

I really really really really want one of these:

...again, that whole lottery thing would help!

Anybody have an iPhone? Like it, love it, can't live without it??? Tell me!

Surgery Update

Well, the ole gallbladder is gone! I had my surgery on Thursday.

Let me tell you a few things I learned since that day:

I am not as young as I used to be!

Pain is not my friend and neither are meds for pain.

The couch is the most comfortable place to sleep. Ever.

We take the simple things for granted. Like eating. Bathing. Moving. Breathing.

Work can wait. I will not be there tomorrow like I thought I would be.

I would rather give birth than do this again!

Did I mention pain? Not just in my stomach, but in my back. Again, I have taken too much for granted!

It sucks to get old!