First of all, I cooked supper. My girls left to go with their dad. Last minute. I'm left to eat alone. Not happy!
So I decide to pop in my Netflix DVD and watch some good ol' Nip/Tuck. Guess what? Wrong disc in the envelope. Wonderful!
Now what? I sit and write. And gripe!
There have been many times in my life where I have just wanted to run away. Seriously! I have always felt like I did not 'belong' here. Here being the exact location in which I reside. Like this whole STATE!
Confused? Well, you know how people who have sex changes say that they felt like they were born in the wrong body and need to change it? That's me. Only I am in the right body, just not the right PLACE! The wrong state, as in United States? I just need another one. Like one that is far enough away to be away from HERE.
My happy place, if you will. Because other than my family (what's left of it....my dad and my sister) and a few close friends, oh and of course, my job, which I love, I feel like I need to leave. I want to GO!
Today would be a good start, only I have no clue exactly which state I would go to. A friend of mine laughs at me still today, because when I was around 18-20 yrs old, I would always say I was going to move to Nebraska! Why there, I have no clue. Maybe I just thought it sounded good.
Another thing holding me here is my girls. They absolutely would not be happy to leave their dad and I could not do that to them. I keep saying that when my baby graduates high school, I am out of here. That's still 8 years away. *SIGH*
What to do? What to do? I guess I have no choice but to stick it out and suck it up, huh? Oh well.
Calgon, take me away!!
7 comments:
Hope your night has gotten better!
Ugh...
Been there... done that.... moved to North Carolina. But That was easy because the girls' dad had moved to Tennessee.
I know that feeling though.
Maybe a vacation?
I'm thinking vacation as well. Girl, we have all had those days. hope you are feeling better today.
Come to my state! :) Well, okay, don't come to MY state, but the one next to me where I spend most of my time. Ha! I'm technically living on the Missouri side of the state line, but the Kansas side of Kansas City (technically NOT KC, but the suburbs south) is a very pretty area. It's where we want to be when we stop paying for outrageous daycare expenses.
The reasons you should come this way?
Lawrence, KS - Great college community, and actually the location you should consider moving to if you don't mind commuting for work. Depending on what industry you're in, Lawrence doesn't have a lot of job opportunities but Topeka, 25 minutes away, and Kansas City, 45 minutes away, DOES. It's small town enough to feel comfortable, has a great downtown, KU provides loads of entertainment and educational influence. KC has lots of attractions to visit, places to shop. And you'd be squarely in the middle of the U.S. so friends can travel from all directions without completely outrageous expenses.
Okay, I'm done now. :) But I really do love Lawrence.
Just take it day by day...sometimes hour by hour...praying for a better day! HUGS!
I've had many a day like that. Sitting in the car heading somewhere thinking about what would happen if I just kept driving! lol Hope today has gone better for you! You're welcome to come here to Wisconsin.......if only for a visit!
WEll then my dear, you must move to The Pacific Northwest !!!!! Oregon/Washington...we are an hour and half away from beach to mountain. We have it all in Gods Country !!!!
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