Nothing lasts forever....
But then when you least expect it, new things are on the horizon.
Two weeks ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. After this past week of rollercoaster emotions, I do not know if or when this will get any easier.
For a very long time now, I have not really been happy in this relationship. It was not because he didn't treat me well or love me with all that he had, because he could not have been better to me. There were just SO many issues that I just could not handle.
We live 100 miles apart. I did not like his kids. At all! I tried! I really did try and it just would not work. There were many other issues too that I won't go into. It's just hard. And it sucks.
I was married for 11 years and I had the worst pain and suffering in my divorce that I have ever felt in my life. I made a promise to myself that I could not and would not settle for anything less than what I felt I needed and deserved. So this tiny step in to freedom has made me feel like I made the right decision. I had to hurt someone who I cared about a whole lot. He has lashed out at me through lots of emails and text messages and he seems to be having a hard time coping.
Part of me feels so relieved that I did it. Yet another part of me is miserable.........
9 comments:
Sorry you're going through this. It will get easier. I know sometimes it feels like it never will, but somehow it always does. I know that doesn't makes things any easier right now though. :o(
Hi Amy! I didn't know that you are going a lot in your life right now. One thing I know is that there's a reason for everything. Whatever it is hold on tight and have faith. In God's time I know you will get things through. I will include you in my prayers.
Poor thing! You really have had a rough go of it, haven't you?? Big hugs! Bottom line, you have to do what's right for YOU. You can't be miserable just so someone else can be happy.
I'm sorry he's lashing out at you. Not pleasant, but it does speak a lot about his character. KWIM?
Hang in there and keep looking for that rainbow!!!!
Big hugs to you.
So sorry there is another issue going on in your life!! Big hugs and lots of prayers to you!!
I know we have already discussed this and you know you have my prayers for things to settle down! Just didn't want you to think I was ignoring your post! lol
I'm so sorry. :( I'm glad you did it though if it's something that is in your interest in the first place. It's not fair to him, his kids OR you if one of the things is that you didn't like em, you know?
I am so sorry you are hurting but I am so proud of you for knowing that you deserve more. You are absolutely right, you shouldn't settle for anything less then what you deserve! ♥
Oh Amy. This is horrible. I hope you're ok. It sounds like you're doing better than he is. But you did the right thing. Why settle? There is no need. You will find Mr. Perfect. He's waiting for you. =)
*HUGS*
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