My Calling

I have finally decided what I want to do.

I want to be a CSI. Yep. A crime scene investigator.

I've been watching all the episodes of the CBS show, from the beginning, on Netflix. I am now up to Season 5 disc 3. I think that makes me qualified to do the job. No need to go to college or take any kind of training, I can do it. I don't like science, or biology or chemistry, so I'll just skip all that.

How hard can it be? I can take the photos of the crime scenes. Easy as pie. I have a camera, and I love to take pictures. All of my subjects will be lying still, so that should be simple. No problem!

Being nosey comes naturally to me, so asking questions and walking around looking suspiciously at potential suspects is right up my alley! I have always wanted to be a spy, so this urge will come in handy for that particular aspect of the job.

I am a mom, so picking up evidence around the murder victims will be a piece of cake also. Fingerprints, hair samples, clothing fibers....nothing to it.

Oh and I work well with others, so just pair me up with this guy, and I think we'll do a great job together.

I can start today!

My New Title

I've been pondering this for quite a while now. I did not want something drastic, but when I signed up for blogger I used the first thing that 'popped' into my mind. Let me explain.

When I decided to create a blog, it was really on a whim. I've blogged before, elsewhere, but I wanted something more serious. A place where not too many people knew me where I could make and create new friendships. That place was here. My escape. That is where my URL idea came into play.

After much thought, I decided to change the title somewhat, but my URL remains the same. I have noticed several bloggers have completely different titles other than the words in their URL. So why I couldn't I do it also?

I have not made a big change or a drastic one. Change is not always something I like.

My old title was Escape to Thought and for a while, I thought it may be somewhat corny. I have come across some rather interesting and somewhat even stranger than thy name for blogs. So without further ado, I came up with Escape Into My Thoughts. No, it's not all that different, but yet it feels a little more comfy for me.

So what do you think? Oh, and what made you choose your title?

Twilight

Ahhh, this book is awesome!

I am almost done with it but it's like I don't want it to end. I know that there are more books in the series, but I can't seem to let myself finish. I am in the 400-page area, so it won't be long.

So far, I love it!

Oh and there is a movie in the works and I can NOT wait until this baby releases. 12-12-08 That's a little long for me, but I am definitely going to see this one. You can check out some previews here.

Edward is just how I pictured him.

I think I fell in love with Edward at the same time Bella did. *Sigh*

The End Of My Story...

My story Part One
My story Part Two
My story Part Three



Many times over the course of the next few weeks, I couldn’t help but stop and wonder what it was that I had done wrong in my life. What was it that I had failed to do that caused my marriage to come to an end in such a short amount of time? I was haunted by it for weeks. Then one day, I figured it out. Nothing. I had done absolutely nothing wrong, whatsoever. None of this had anything to do with what kind of wife I was or what sort of mother that I am. This was all the workings of another person, and it was totally out of my control.

To this day, I swear that the anti-depressant, Lexapro, saved my life. Without it I would never have gotten through the next few months. That, combined with the help of my children, my family and my friends. Nobody could get over how well I was doing and how far I had come despite my troubles. I felt like a new person.

So as it goes, my life went on. I made new friends, I changed my attitude about so many different things, I came out of my shell and lived again. I found that I was actually happier now than I had ever been, even when I was married. I discovered things about my husband and my marriage that were all wrong, and despite the fact that I always thought we had a great life and everything was wonderful, in actuality, it was not.

I would never have left my husband. I was in this marriage for better or for worse and such is how it should be. All of the promises I had made were to be kept and I will always know in my heart that what I did what was right. I loved with all that I had and did everything I had to do to make our lives as happy as possible. Sometimes your best is not enough for some. So be it.
It has been almost two years since all of this has happened. My ex husband is no longer with the woman that he left me to pursue a relationship with. For that I am grateful, because I did not like for my girls to be in that particular situation. As far as I know, it was not a healthy environment or relationship.

C and I get along now as well as can be expected. I think that some of our friends and family actually think our situation now is a strange one. However, I no longer have any (or many) hard feelings towards him. Granted, I did go through one of the most awful things anyone could imagine. I just realized that no matter what, life goes on and it can only get better.

I could not have asked for a better father for my children. Although we didn’t work out as a married couple, we do very well in the co-parenting department. In our divorce, we agreed on just about everything and that made the transition much easier for all of us. I still live in the home that we had together, so my girls have that comfort of the home they’ve known all along. They do miss their dad horribly. Not for the fact that they don’t see him, he gets them every other weekend and he does not live far from us. He also calls them every day and supports them well financially. It’s just hard for them not seeing him everyday like they normally would have.

I think that divorce is a terrible thing to face and I would not wish it on the most horrid of people. Nobody deserves to go through it, especially the children. I would never have dreamed of putting them through all of the drama that ensued, but they are thriving very well. Thankfully.

One day I will probably look back on all of this and see it as a learning experience. Something that only made me a stronger person. As for now, I still have moments and I am not quite as trusting of a person as I used to be. With time I know that my wounds will be completely healed and I will be a better person for it. Keeping a positive outlook on life is hard at times but I am working on it. I know that I deserve to be happy and I am.

I'm In

After hearing so much about a certain series of books on other blogs out there, I gave in and went out and bought this today:

I am off to read!

DON'T MESS WITH MY STUFF!

Dear Blog People,

You are lucky. Very lucky. You put my blog reader subscription thingy back the way it was and the way I like it and the way I want it to stay! You are so lucky, because let's get something straight here: I DON'T LIKE CHANGE!!!! When I get something the way I like it, don't go and take it upon yourself and throw me a curve ball because there will be hell to pay. Seriously. Or not, but still.

I was very frustrated this morning when I logged into blogger and looked at my reader, scrolled down, and my "Secret Is In The Sauce" link was not there. Neither was "TipJunkie". Oh no, it just couldn't be. And finding them so I could read and comment and enter contests was a pain and not so convenient like normal. I was not a happy camper.

I cried out to my bloggy friends and they answered me. They care. Maybe, I don't know. But still. Don't change my 'stuff' again or I am seriously going to freak. Things are back to normal, so I can relax. Deep breath in. And out. Ahhh, relief!

Help Me If You Can....Please!

If any of you out there in bloggy world can help me, I would be so excited.

Today when I logged on to my google reader, the first thing I noticed was that about half of my subscriptions were not showing up on the left hand side where they are all usually listed.

I have no clue where they went, and when I pull up the list of all of my subscriptions (on a separate page) they are all there. However, they are not showing in my reader listing, all highlighted and smiling at me to go and read. Some of them were, but not all of them. I went in and checked all my settings and did everything I could think of (logged off, and back on, cleared my history, cookies, etc.) all of that and nothing.

Please! Please! Please! If anyone out there can help me get my reader back the way it was, I will be indebted to you forever. I am so sad :(

Thanks in advance.